hourglass rant

there are days where you just find yourself in the past and separating the colors and the whites all at the same time. then, there are days where you find yourself nothing else but happy, but at the same time nothing else but sad. then you think, you fear that you share the fate of another. you breathed equal words at one point, you both sang and heard the same songs, you both hoped blindly, fearingly for a corresponding tomorrow- only on a different phase on the time scale. but your clock broke, something fell, something changed- something started again. i think and fear that i share that fate with you.
i just don't want it.
too strong. overwhelming,
you can't swim too far out into forever. you can't reach too far out to the other side- but i believe we can try. dreading the worst that can be, is knowing that nothing is all there will ever be. but to think, it isn't nothing. will i be left without words? will you be the first to step out? or will i be the first to drop it because i'm too weak to believe? i doubt it. we can try. just a little bit scared. this is what your greatest fear feels like.
h e r e, i g i v e y o u m y h o u r g l a s s r a n t